The steam deck is pretty old and VERY VERY VERY BULKY <-- I have difficulties holding it in my small hands

Go to a store and check out similar products from other brands to see if you like the grip

Also, only buy linux based/ linux compatible consoles

The steam deck is an excellent product, with great repairability, amazing software and the touchpads are a godsend. But if you are never going to use it because of it’s size, alternatives are worth considering

If you decide to go with the deck, buy a silicone case for it